INTIMACY

Death
    Desire
        Quiet
            Yearning

Tears
For all those
Forgotten
Gone
Lost in muddled waters


Death
    Endings
        Living
            Openings


A memory unveiled
A door unlocked
Tenderness fills the room

Deep intimacy so profound
Yet the gesture so small

An eye gaze met
Staying
Exposes it all

GATEWAY TO PLEASURE

Relaxing - skin on skin
Each deep breath removing a layer of unknown tension

A tsunami of waves wash over me
Taking with it, the body's numbness

Moans, sighs, aaahs as each exhale relaxes me more and more

Sensation coming back
Layers and layers of unwinding take place

Every deep breath
The gateway back to bodily pleasure

RESENTMENT or RAPTURE

Tension mounting
Silence
Steely eyed looks

Communication stilted
Hostility in the air

Disconnect wide as the sea
Jump in or turn away?

Constructs of the mind
Seemingly valid reasons to dig in

Space, freedom? or Go deeper, give more?

Connection and distancing
Two sides of the same coin
Love only a perception away

A small opening
Relaxing into our touch
Electricity, tingling sensations, nerves pulsating Passion re-ignited

We're back!
Love jump-started

Resentment or rapture
What are you aligned with?
Either only a thin veil away
Right here, right now

Flow

Wind, air, the birds fill me
Aliveness in the air

The music, the symphony awake me
Singing, delighting, dancing
Such joy

Robins, cardinals, chickadees, hummingbirds, sparrows
All let me know the day begins in the flow

Surrendering to Love

Opened, softened, satiated

Filled, fulfilled, happy

Nothing, emptied, claimed

Tears, giggles, the depth of all women's pain

Your presence and power open the gates

To unveil hurt, rage, vulnerability and sweet love

Our union is ancient

Your eyes are those of a Roman god, a Gaelic warrior, or the wonder of a little boy

Here I worship you and see in you the Divine Transcending earthly matters Time no longer exists

I revel in where u have taken me

A place so surrendered, light and open

You have set me free

Stir Me Up

stir me up

draw me down

coax me out

lure me in

your "no's" invite persistence

slower, deeper

until your body livens

and your eyes surrender

your hot softness - begs to be crushed
by my fierce, knowing force you awaken
with your light I lead us into darkness
with relentless love and firm command

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To FEEL Alive

In-box, Twitter texts, Facebook
All trying to capture my interest

Going this way, then that
Leaves me feeling scattered, isolated and asking “Am I all that?”

I want to FEEL…
Feel deeply
Feel alive
Feel something
The pulse of aliveness running through me

I open the windows to let life in
The birds are singing, nature is purposely hustling
The breeze moves through what appears still

I go outside, breath in the fresh air
My senses start to awaken

I feel alive again
The air on my face
The cold breeze on my legs
My lungs expanding and contracting
As I breathe so deep
Expanding my long legs up the steep sand dune

I no longer feel alone
I feel alive, sharing life with those around me
The birds, the trees, the bugs

The sand wet in my toes
Water gushing on the shore
I feel full

Winding my way back on a muddy trail, mush under my toes
Wet, fresh, green everywhere
I feel God, life’s connected energy forces, filling me

I am happy, FEELING so ALIVE

I Don't Know What To Do....

The days wane on
My purpose feels gone

Gift my men, the fruits of my heart
Food, home and loving are my art

In a box so beautiful and contained
Yearning to feel full; it can't be feigned

Food, alcohol, do their best
To pleasure me, distract me and full fill me

Leaving me duller, fatter - yet not satisfied - I seek to be fully gratified
More, more, more - I want it all

Action, connection, depth - do I feel into others at all?
Remembering who I am - Divine Love, no gesture too small

When lost in my thoughts....
I desire to remember to plug in to Love's call

New Lover

Into the night
You take me

Hearts meld
Eyes feel

What was once an act that scratched our surfaces
Now, pure union, giving for bliss

Yearning, offering
Penetrating with your depth

Steady, fierce, knowingly taking...
Having all you want

Pressing in your darkness
Desires so wanton

Too improper to speak
Shredding me to pieces

No boundaries to stop you
Unrestrained, unsuppressed and untamed love

Yearning for more
Death and obliteration

Feeling your heart's passion and desire
Opens me wider

All is yours
To have and take

Devotion, devouring
You - unfolded this flowering

Our hearts open
Nothing matters
God's love is flowing

Radiant One

Dear Radiant One,

Your smile, your sigh open me to the heavens
You pierce me with the light from your heart

Soften and fill me with your eye's smile
Let your voice sing with pleasure and delight

Your undulating body moves with the pulse of light
Your softness, allows us to awaken to the day

Navigating thru our relationships, feeling what's needed
Patiently absorbing the sharp edges

Your softness and warmth
Ready us for the coming day

Devotion

No me
Only pure devotion
Loving you
And all I see you to be

A king, a warrior, lover and little boy
Each part worthy and powerful

Tender, exposed, hurting and longing to be loved, held and revered

A great man...
I want to feel your greatest gifts

Uninhibited love
Passion with purpose
Clarity and direction
Undoing the world's contractions with care, compassion and laser intuition

Keen sense of duality and shadow
Tender heart, piercing us open to God

I see all you can be
I lift you to your greatness
I catch you when you fall

You are destined to stand tall
And share with us your all

Entwined

I sink down - down into you
You wrap yourself around me

Roots, tethering me tightly
From my feet, up to my throat

I feel snug, protected, relaxed by you
You are alive - pulsing with life
We are one

Crystal Queen

Written after a surprise kidney stone removal....

CRYSTAL QUEEN

My way
Or the Highway

I know what's best
Forget about 'you rest

Black or white
I know what's right

Sharp, hard, rigid and precise
Lends itself to not bein' nice

Over time the ego gets bigger and harder
I'll do it my way, starts to feel like, "Meet me, Ms Martyr"

Vigilante, on her game
Is gonna die like you, just the same

Let things go, then they pass
Hang on, and it cuts glass

Crystals and stones
Givin' me the groans

Rigid and hard, has gotta go
Time to soften, be in the flow

Loosening the reigns, releasing the strife
Softly I go, melting into life

Closure

I got a glimpse today
I felt the heat rising within
I softened, melted multiple times

As the day went on, a little hurt here
A slight clench there

A gift not met
That small contraction closes my veil

Getting lonely, feeling lost
Stormy weather, pulling me in

I am loved, yet I feel alone
My yearnings insatiable,
Who could possibly meet them

More fullness, fire, radiant heat
When the flame goes out, I feel dead

I want to be pressed open, the penetration of his art
Can I keep giving, when I want, want, want?

I too must generate spontaneous art
Devotional offering, yearning awakens my flame
And allows me to live more fully from my heart

Melting Open

Opening to love
That's all there is

Deep, full love is only a sheath away
Breathe into that veil
Deeper, dissolving the filters of my perception

Expanding my breath down into my heart
Relaxing my jaw, shoulders, softening.
Feeling the other, can I feel their heart?

It's such a thin layer that keeps us apart
Closure an old habit, protecting my heart

I invoke my instincts like a sensing animal,
Feeling, smelling - noticing more
Knowing I am safe, I can open love's door

Or I invoke the child of wonder, trusting, adoring, following you
Devotional disposition, vulnerable, each moment is new

Sometimes it's hard, when I don't get my way
You annoy me, are closed and don't want to play

Can I see past your hurts, thru mine, not reacting
Practicing in the moment, yearning and giving affection

Melting you open, with a soft touch or gaze
I can lessen the closures, opening the gates

Melting us open to God, is the feminine's divine fate.

Pressing Me In

You surprise me, forcefully without any harm
And take me, strongly in your arms


The depth of your gaze and the dark in your eyes
Fills me, fuels me, ecstatically - I love the surprise

Your confidence, intense pace
Commanding tone and serious face

Melt me, relax me
Who knew you could put me in my place

Your fierceness and fire smooths me, irons me out
You are taking me to new places, without a doubt

Pressing me in, opening to God
Nervous system now on 'slow'
I softly surrender, allowing our love to flow

Keep Opening

The house is quiet, little stirring in the air.
My heart still expanded, but do I dare, share my flair?

Folding back into the life stream
Our weekend like a dream

Alchemy - a gift witches create
Turning the ordinary into an altered state

Love, open, "gift" - no matter what
No more falling in a rut

Who needs a little spice of my brew
How could I gift it so they feel anew

Feeling, sensing - what do they need
I will stay open, dropping my seeds

Fertilizing each encounter with a fun spice
Be creative, the next new flavor might be right.

Opening to God is what is what it's about
Tribal, snaking, underworld, latin fire - there are so many routes!

The Dark One

I can't contain myself.
I'm about to burst.
The cauldron is stirring,
And if ignored, will bring out my worst.

She's scratching and pawing,
wanting to unleash.
I stuff her, squash her
Be quiet, go away.

I feed her incessant, insatiable appetite.
Trying to appease her with food,
No matter how much, or how often.

Until the untamed is unleashed,
I bristle, rigidly control and contain,
Slowly contracting, retracting until I'm insane.

While the beast is numb and subdued with food,
The cauldron still simmers, darkening my mood.

The pull of the night sky and and dark moon is calling her out.
To delve into shadow through the darkest route.

The ritual of dance, art of surrender and the power to devour....
Are ancient, cyclical and forever here to claim our power.

No longer containing what's there to be risen,
Her voice, her sounds, her rage and sorrows,
Fill the heavens for all women and girls to come forth from their burrows.

To share our collective pulse, our curse, alchemy and power.
We renew ourselves, before being reborn into a beautiful flower.

The space between destruction and creation,
Is our birth of transformation.

Where Do you Reside?

Where do you live from?
Which part of your body
From your head, your heart, your gut, your sex?

Do you choose linear-ly, with ration and discernment
Where is your power center?

Do you feel out
What would be possible if you lived in sensation
From your senses
Primal, animal like, all feelers are on

Would you be fast or slow
Scared or trusting
Wanting or hiding
Giving or withholding

Channels are clear
No blocks are here

Your energy is strong
Your presence is ON

You communicate with every sense
Your eyes go deep
Your scent permeates

You hear it all
You feel and see it all
You penetrate with presence wherever you go

Your energy circulates
Always in the flow

Thank You Bruno

Life is what you make it.
You can see what's wrong, what's in the way.
Or you can see what's good and seize the day.

Bruno had a spirit that opened his heart
Every morning with a smile and a wag,
That said, "Hey, today's my lucky day. I'm here for you - you're here for me
What can we we do to play?"

Never heavy, down and out
Bruno didn't every seem to pout

Thank you, thank you, thank you Bruno!